Life is too hard to go through it alone, without something to hold onto and without something that is sacred. Lately i turned to be someone, what's the phrase i'm looking for ?! hmm.. "A girl who had no interest to fix her life to be much better".
Yes, i am lazy.
Yes, i have no idea what to do.
Yes, i am the most stubborn man ever.
Yes, i am selfish.
Yes, i am a worst sister and not a good daughter.
Yes, i am not a good friend.
Yes, i am a terrible girlfriend.
Yes, I'VE HURT SO MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE !!
And yes, i am a pathetic girl.
Well ya, those "yes things" sound horrible, huh ?! I'm just trying to open my heart in order to be someone better, realizing how bad i am. I know that i was wrong but don't know why it's really hard to wake up then do something right. I don't even care bout my study, i don't give a damn to people whom trying to encourage me. I was rude, i shouldn't be pushing my friends and my boyfriend away. Surely, i need those people.
I'm trying to find a good side of me, yap !! realizing my bad is the first step.
After all that i've been through, those worst things, who on earth can i turn to ?!
I'm so grateful, He still gives me some more time to start over my spirit. It's just too bad that i wasted my time by doing nothing instead of do what i gotta do. Graduate soon !! :)
The most important point is i've found the new spirit to finish my graduate-thesis; writing, reading, analyzing and praying is all what i gotta do.
I don't care about my self, it's fine. But it's time to pay back, just don't let the people around me feel disapointed of having me as someone they love..
p.s. Welcome back Mr. Spirit and just make your self at home :)
6
Darmi
Orang tua ku tipikal manusia yang cukup prinsipil, salah satu prinsip mereka yang akhirnya turut mendarah daging ke aku adalah "jangan pernah lupain kampung halaman, jangan sok-sokan jadi orang kota, kita ini cuma orang kampung yang lagi berjuang buat ngga jadi kampungan", gleek !! :D err.. tapi kali ini aku ngga bakal ngebahas masalah prinsip orang tua aku, melainkan hal yang mampu aku lihat didaerah yang namanya "kampung" itu..
Boleh ya aku cerita sedikit flash-back :)
Zamannya kami (me and my two little brothers maksudnya) masih kecil-kecil, masih ingusan dan masih demen berantem, orang tuaku selalu menghargai prestasi rapor yang kami peroleh (tentunya kalo dapet ranking, kalo ngga yah silahkan manyun, ngga bakal dikasih apa-apa) dengan menawarkan sebuah paket liburan ke rumah nenek. Dan yaa.. kamipun melonjak-lonjak kegirangan kalo udah dikasih izin buat pulang kampung tanpa ditemani ibu-bapak. Karena disana kami bisa bebas sebebas-bebasnya, bisa main lumpur, ujan-ujanan, basah-basahan nangkep ikan, mandi disungai, dan hal yang paling aku suka.. rutinitas setiap pagi : kucuk-kucuk bangun pagi menuju dapur karena kami tau teh hangat khas buatan nenek sudah terhidang dimeja, sambil menyantap teh hangat kamipun tertawa kegirangan pamer asap yang keluar dari mulut. Yap. rumah nenek ku terletak di kaki bukit, yang brrr.. dingin sekali.
Aku, kedua adikku dan sepupu-sepupuku kerap kali janjian untuk liburan bersama, yang yaah sangat menyenangkan :) Oh ya, nenek akan marah kalau kami hanya main dirumah, nenek maunya kami main sama anak-anak kampung lainnya. Wohoo.. seru sekali. Ternyata mereka jago-jago dan sangat pemberani. Satu diantara mereka teman kecilku itu bernama Darmi. Seorang anak laki-laki yang kocak, kepalanya botak dan selalu melindungi kami dari anak-anak yang jahil. Aku ingat betul gimana sok jagonya dia menyelam ke dalam sungai buat nangkepin udang dan ia santap mentah-mentah. weekk.. jijiiik.. tapi dia bilang enak :(
Ada lagi, nah jadi dibelakang rumah nenek ku banyak sekali buah-buahan mulai dari duku, rambutan, kelapa sampe durianpun ada. Jadilah kami menjadi prajurit penjaga durian kalo-kalo ada yang jatuh :) Intinya.. begitu banyak kenangan kami bersama Darmi..
Tahun ini kembali aku pulang ke kampung nenek, merayakan lebaran bersama keluarga besar. Bedanya kali ini aku ngga ujan-ujanan lagi, ngga main lumpur lagi dan sedihnya akupun tak melihat Darmi.. "Ah, mungkin Darmi sudah tidak mau main bersama ku lagi, atau dia malu, atau dia sudah pergi merantau buat cari duit, atau dia sudah tak kenal aku ?!" selintas kemunginan-kemungkinan itu muncul dipikiranku. Namun semuanya sedikit terabaikan karena sibuk bersilaturahmi dengan sanak saudara. Sampai akhirnya aku dikejutkan karena melihat ibuku menangis diruang tamu dan nenek terlihat menjelaskan perihal yang membuat ibuku menangis. Aku menghampiri ibu dan bertanya ada apa, sambil menahan tangis ibuku bercerita apa yang baru saja dia lihat. Penjelasan ibu dan nenek menjawab semua tanyaku akan Darmi; dia bukan berubah menjadi seorang yang sombong, bukan pula lupa akan aku, tapi dia telah lupa semua orang yang ada disekelilingnya, termasuk orang tuanya sendiri.
Darmi sakit.
Kian hari badannya kian kurus, bahkan dia tidak mampu melakukan kegiatan pribadi seperti mandi dan makan. Anak kecil dikampung banyak yang bilang kalo Darmi sudah gila, karena setiap kali dia dibiarkan keluar rumah, selalu hilang. Dia pernah hilang dua hari dua malam dan setelah orang satu kampung panik dan putus asa mencarinya, Darmi ditemukan sedang duduk melamun ditengah hutan dan sejak itu dia dikurung didalam rumah.
Aku bukan bermaksud hiperbol, tapi aku yakin siapapun yang melihat kondisi dia saat ini pasti akan menitikkan air mata. Darmi dikurung sendirian didalam ruangan kosong, gelap dan dimalam hari hanya ada lampu minyak yang menjadi sumber cahaya. Pertama kali aku mengunjunginya di hari lebaran kedua, dimana semua orang bersuka cita penuh gembira merayakan hari kemenangan, tapi tidak dengan Darmi.. Dia tetap dikurung. Ya Allah.. Aku masih ngga percaya kalo ini Darmi, sangat kurus dan selalu tersenyum. Senyum kocaknya masih ada tapi sayang senyum itu hanya senyum hampa. Ah, aku masih ingat gimana bagusnya suara Darmi ketika mengumandangkan adzan di masjid, gimana merdunya suara darmi ketika ia mengaji.. Melihat keadaannya sekarang, hidup yang serba kekurangan, sakit yang ia derita serta perlakuan kasar dari saudara-saudaranya, aku kehabisan kata. Seperti alur cerita sinetron indonesia yang benar-benar sedang terjadi dikehidupan nyata.
Buat Darmi teman kecil ku.. Aku cuma bisa berdoa semoga Darmi kelak bisa sembuh, kembali beraktifitas dan senyum kocak mu kembali lagi menghias hari..
Boleh ya aku cerita sedikit flash-back :)
Zamannya kami (me and my two little brothers maksudnya) masih kecil-kecil, masih ingusan dan masih demen berantem, orang tuaku selalu menghargai prestasi rapor yang kami peroleh (tentunya kalo dapet ranking, kalo ngga yah silahkan manyun, ngga bakal dikasih apa-apa) dengan menawarkan sebuah paket liburan ke rumah nenek. Dan yaa.. kamipun melonjak-lonjak kegirangan kalo udah dikasih izin buat pulang kampung tanpa ditemani ibu-bapak. Karena disana kami bisa bebas sebebas-bebasnya, bisa main lumpur, ujan-ujanan, basah-basahan nangkep ikan, mandi disungai, dan hal yang paling aku suka.. rutinitas setiap pagi : kucuk-kucuk bangun pagi menuju dapur karena kami tau teh hangat khas buatan nenek sudah terhidang dimeja, sambil menyantap teh hangat kamipun tertawa kegirangan pamer asap yang keluar dari mulut. Yap. rumah nenek ku terletak di kaki bukit, yang brrr.. dingin sekali.
Aku, kedua adikku dan sepupu-sepupuku kerap kali janjian untuk liburan bersama, yang yaah sangat menyenangkan :) Oh ya, nenek akan marah kalau kami hanya main dirumah, nenek maunya kami main sama anak-anak kampung lainnya. Wohoo.. seru sekali. Ternyata mereka jago-jago dan sangat pemberani. Satu diantara mereka teman kecilku itu bernama Darmi. Seorang anak laki-laki yang kocak, kepalanya botak dan selalu melindungi kami dari anak-anak yang jahil. Aku ingat betul gimana sok jagonya dia menyelam ke dalam sungai buat nangkepin udang dan ia santap mentah-mentah. weekk.. jijiiik.. tapi dia bilang enak :(
Ada lagi, nah jadi dibelakang rumah nenek ku banyak sekali buah-buahan mulai dari duku, rambutan, kelapa sampe durianpun ada. Jadilah kami menjadi prajurit penjaga durian kalo-kalo ada yang jatuh :) Intinya.. begitu banyak kenangan kami bersama Darmi..
Tahun ini kembali aku pulang ke kampung nenek, merayakan lebaran bersama keluarga besar. Bedanya kali ini aku ngga ujan-ujanan lagi, ngga main lumpur lagi dan sedihnya akupun tak melihat Darmi.. "Ah, mungkin Darmi sudah tidak mau main bersama ku lagi, atau dia malu, atau dia sudah pergi merantau buat cari duit, atau dia sudah tak kenal aku ?!" selintas kemunginan-kemungkinan itu muncul dipikiranku. Namun semuanya sedikit terabaikan karena sibuk bersilaturahmi dengan sanak saudara. Sampai akhirnya aku dikejutkan karena melihat ibuku menangis diruang tamu dan nenek terlihat menjelaskan perihal yang membuat ibuku menangis. Aku menghampiri ibu dan bertanya ada apa, sambil menahan tangis ibuku bercerita apa yang baru saja dia lihat. Penjelasan ibu dan nenek menjawab semua tanyaku akan Darmi; dia bukan berubah menjadi seorang yang sombong, bukan pula lupa akan aku, tapi dia telah lupa semua orang yang ada disekelilingnya, termasuk orang tuanya sendiri.
Darmi sakit.
Kian hari badannya kian kurus, bahkan dia tidak mampu melakukan kegiatan pribadi seperti mandi dan makan. Anak kecil dikampung banyak yang bilang kalo Darmi sudah gila, karena setiap kali dia dibiarkan keluar rumah, selalu hilang. Dia pernah hilang dua hari dua malam dan setelah orang satu kampung panik dan putus asa mencarinya, Darmi ditemukan sedang duduk melamun ditengah hutan dan sejak itu dia dikurung didalam rumah.
Aku bukan bermaksud hiperbol, tapi aku yakin siapapun yang melihat kondisi dia saat ini pasti akan menitikkan air mata. Darmi dikurung sendirian didalam ruangan kosong, gelap dan dimalam hari hanya ada lampu minyak yang menjadi sumber cahaya. Pertama kali aku mengunjunginya di hari lebaran kedua, dimana semua orang bersuka cita penuh gembira merayakan hari kemenangan, tapi tidak dengan Darmi.. Dia tetap dikurung. Ya Allah.. Aku masih ngga percaya kalo ini Darmi, sangat kurus dan selalu tersenyum. Senyum kocaknya masih ada tapi sayang senyum itu hanya senyum hampa. Ah, aku masih ingat gimana bagusnya suara Darmi ketika mengumandangkan adzan di masjid, gimana merdunya suara darmi ketika ia mengaji.. Melihat keadaannya sekarang, hidup yang serba kekurangan, sakit yang ia derita serta perlakuan kasar dari saudara-saudaranya, aku kehabisan kata. Seperti alur cerita sinetron indonesia yang benar-benar sedang terjadi dikehidupan nyata.
Buat Darmi teman kecil ku.. Aku cuma bisa berdoa semoga Darmi kelak bisa sembuh, kembali beraktifitas dan senyum kocak mu kembali lagi menghias hari..
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martabak manis
Hello Again...
Almost a month i leave martabak manis, no writing and no story. Yes, there were so many ideas came up in my head from time to time but i never really got a chance to write it. Busy ?! uummm.. not really. Just disappear for a while :) Anywho, where ever you are, i bring you some stories that probably you would like to read :D
1. I just got back from my hometown Bengkulu. Celebrating Idul Fitri with my whole big family and my friends, you know it's kinda a long awaited reunion. So happy but time goes by so fast and here i am, back to my daily life as a last year student who should finish her graduate-thesis soon, very soon.
2. My weight !! gosh gosh !! just can't believe it rises 4 kilograms. aarrrgghhhh :(
gee.. a big fat tall beautiful gorgeous agy is back !! :D
3. And ya, bout my graduate-thesis.. haven't even started to re-write. Have to find an encouragement; anything, anyone, anywho, whatever. I need that as long as it encourages me so i can start to finish and free my soul from the bloody question "Kapan wisuda ?!"
4. For somebody out there, hope you are fine and always have the same feeling with me. Wish you were here with your very comforting smile just to say "have a great day agli.." every single morning when i wake up. I know, distance means nothing when someone means so much, but i just wanna be honest with my self that i miss him, i miss him to the bone.
Would love to meet up sometime in the near future..
And others ?! well yaa.. doing great with my incredible best girlfriends and other friends at campus. One thing for sure, i miss my two little brothers, my mom and my dad. Really miss to be around them. Oh yaa.. FYI "Sinusitis itu menyakitkaaan dan sangat tidak enak" so avoid ice, any kind of ice; ice cream, cold soft drink, waffle ice cream, ice cream sundae and any other float drinks. Special for me and all of you, start a healhty life !!
So, so so.. i guess that is all for now. Hope i can do more writing next time :)
1. I just got back from my hometown Bengkulu. Celebrating Idul Fitri with my whole big family and my friends, you know it's kinda a long awaited reunion. So happy but time goes by so fast and here i am, back to my daily life as a last year student who should finish her graduate-thesis soon, very soon.
2. My weight !! gosh gosh !! just can't believe it rises 4 kilograms. aarrrgghhhh :(
gee.. a big fat tall beautiful gorgeous agy is back !! :D
3. And ya, bout my graduate-thesis.. haven't even started to re-write. Have to find an encouragement; anything, anyone, anywho, whatever. I need that as long as it encourages me so i can start to finish and free my soul from the bloody question "Kapan wisuda ?!"
4. For somebody out there, hope you are fine and always have the same feeling with me. Wish you were here with your very comforting smile just to say "have a great day agli.." every single morning when i wake up. I know, distance means nothing when someone means so much, but i just wanna be honest with my self that i miss him, i miss him to the bone.
Would love to meet up sometime in the near future..
And others ?! well yaa.. doing great with my incredible best girlfriends and other friends at campus. One thing for sure, i miss my two little brothers, my mom and my dad. Really miss to be around them. Oh yaa.. FYI "Sinusitis itu menyakitkaaan dan sangat tidak enak" so avoid ice, any kind of ice; ice cream, cold soft drink, waffle ice cream, ice cream sundae and any other float drinks. Special for me and all of you, start a healhty life !!
So, so so.. i guess that is all for now. Hope i can do more writing next time :)
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martabak manis
Am i overreacting ?!
Having a long distance relationship ?!
It never crossed my mind not even in my wildest dream.
Well ya, the day that i agreed to have this kinda relationship i was thinking that this relationship won't last more than three months. But i was all wrong, it's 28 months already. Until now, I do believe this is the benefit of being an easy going person, yea i don't really need a person whom always be there for me, meaning that i can actually meet the person whom i have relationship with. No, i don't need that. I'd like to be alone, have my own time and keep trying to be an independent girl who is able to finish many stuffs by my self. Also positively i'll learn how the length of the distance teach me to more patient and faithful.
For 28 months i know pretty well how to deal with all jealousy, anger, missing, trust and to be trusted and also faithful. Sometime i can handle it well and sometime i failed, if i may say I've failed almost all the time :( .. It's more difficult since i realize i know i can do anything that i want without him knowing whatever i'm doing here. I'm tired to struggle on those problems. I'm sick of it. Then somehow it changed. I started seeing long distance relationship in a different way. Right now i need the real one, like, when i need someone to help me with school work, someone to give me a hand with all my graduate-thesis stuff, someone whom his face always smile for me just to cheer me up, he can't really be there to help me. We've done many things to make that distance seems nothing; chatting online, video conference, video call by cell phone, texting, talking on the phone, etc. But still, meeting him in person is something very special since i can't see him everyday.
I know i should not be that selfish by wanting him to be right here beside me. There are reasons why this is happening. Yaa i know, the only thing that i still believe; it surely will be better when something so far finally gets so close to me. When will it happen ?! it'll come exactly when i can pass through all those messy things. Just let the LDR drama started :)
It never crossed my mind not even in my wildest dream.
Well ya, the day that i agreed to have this kinda relationship i was thinking that this relationship won't last more than three months. But i was all wrong, it's 28 months already. Until now, I do believe this is the benefit of being an easy going person, yea i don't really need a person whom always be there for me, meaning that i can actually meet the person whom i have relationship with. No, i don't need that. I'd like to be alone, have my own time and keep trying to be an independent girl who is able to finish many stuffs by my self. Also positively i'll learn how the length of the distance teach me to more patient and faithful.
For 28 months i know pretty well how to deal with all jealousy, anger, missing, trust and to be trusted and also faithful. Sometime i can handle it well and sometime i failed, if i may say I've failed almost all the time :( .. It's more difficult since i realize i know i can do anything that i want without him knowing whatever i'm doing here. I'm tired to struggle on those problems. I'm sick of it. Then somehow it changed. I started seeing long distance relationship in a different way. Right now i need the real one, like, when i need someone to help me with school work, someone to give me a hand with all my graduate-thesis stuff, someone whom his face always smile for me just to cheer me up, he can't really be there to help me. We've done many things to make that distance seems nothing; chatting online, video conference, video call by cell phone, texting, talking on the phone, etc. But still, meeting him in person is something very special since i can't see him everyday.
I know i should not be that selfish by wanting him to be right here beside me. There are reasons why this is happening. Yaa i know, the only thing that i still believe; it surely will be better when something so far finally gets so close to me. When will it happen ?! it'll come exactly when i can pass through all those messy things. Just let the LDR drama started :)
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martabak manis
Temen Baru..
Ditengah-tengah proses penyelesaian thesis-ku yang ternyata baru selesai beberapa halaman, untuk kesekian kalinya aku menemukan kembali aktifitas pengalih yang jauuuh lebih menyenangkan dari pada nyelesein skripshit :D ... Nah, berhubung sekarang lagi puasa yang biasanya mengakibatkan berat badan kian berat karena agenda buka bareng yang ngga ada habisnya serta laper mata (dan laper perut) disaat berbuka yang bikin aku pengen beli semua jajanan yang ada di "Pasar Pabukoan", aku, agy si pesek menemukan aktifitas untuk menyeimbangi berat badan yang berpotensi untuk kian bertambah berat tersebut (halah). jejeeeenggg...
Hullahop warna-warni
hiaaak !!! :D
aku menjadwalkan setiap hari untuk bermain hullahop selama kurang lebih satu jam, jam 5 - jam 6 sore atau jam 6 - jam 7 pagi. Awalnya sih keliatan seperti robot, badan kaku dan putaran hullahop yang mampu ku capai ngga lebih dari 5 putaran. Ternyata kata-kata orang barat "Practise makes Perfect" itu bener banget, setelah berminggu-minggu main hullahop konsisten dengan jadwal yang udah aku tetapkan, aku menjadi pemain hullahop yang jauuuh lebih baik, yaaah... udah nyampe ratusan, alhamdulillah :D
olrite !! puasa sih boleh puasa, laper sih boleh laper, haus sih boleh haus tapi bukan berarti lantasan ngebikin kita males gerak. Ibadah iya, olahraga iya, sehat iya dan langsingpun iya (amiiinn) :D
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martabak manis
Lovely Twenty (two)..
Seperti semua orang di dunia, akupun punya hari lahir. 7 agustus tepatnya, setiap tanggal ini di tiap tahun usiaku bertambah yang berarti jatah hidup ku di dunia ikut seta berkurang. Ditahun ini usiaku genap 22 tahun, yah, lumayan berumur lumayan tua. I do believe i've changed, i turn to be someone different. Semakin lama aku sendiri bingung memaknai "ulang tahun" harusnya seperti apa, tapi yang jelas sabtu 7 agustus kemarin mereka semua: teman, saudara, keluarga, pacar memberi ucapan serta mengucap doa terbaik untukku yang semua itu berati satu; Happiness :)
Let's take a look days before my birthday, dimalam ulang tahunku dan beberapa hari sebelumnya aku mengalami yaah i felt just like someone who live alone, no one care of me and nobody loves me. Perasaan aneh ini kian menjadi-jadi, aku kian menutup diri, lebih memilih menghabiskan waktu sendirian di kosan, nonton sampe mataku terasa perih. Something occured, i cried after watching Chuck season 3 episode 19 (again). That night I watched it for three times and everytime i watched it my tears go down.. Well sounds stupid may be, selain chuck episode 19 ini memang episode favoritku (scene yang selalu bikin aku nangis: ketika Shaw menembak ayah chuck. No need to explain but i just think i need to make it clear), saat itu aku ngerasa ngga butuh siapa-siapa karena aku yakin kalo aku sempat cerita ke mereka, bisa dipastikan mereka hanya akan menanggapi perasaanku ini sebagai suatu hal yang berlebihan. Tapi Setelahnya aku ngerasa lega, rasanya semua yang nyesek berkurang, aku pun sedikit jadi lebih tenang dan ternyata kali ini aku cuma butuh nangis. Sedikit rasa lega dan deep down inside i want to see my family, i want my mom and my dad hug me, i want a surprise simple gift from my two little brothers, just like years ago, they gave me coldplay first album (coz i lost mine). God.. I'm so grateful for having those people around me..
Paginya, aku bangun lebih awal dan i found so many unread massages in my cell phone and my facebook wall also full of birthday wishes :) Mereka mengirimkan ucapan selamat dan doa yang sukses bikin aku merasa haru, belum sempat ku balas satu-satu tiba-tiba My hero memanggil dan ringtone "Alert-alert !! your daddy is calling" terdengar dari handphoneku, dengan excited ku jawab panggilan itu:
Agli : "Hallo assalamualaikum bapak.."
My Hero : "Waalaikumsalah warrohmatullah.. (bapak, Ibu, Nday, adi nyanyi bareng) "Slamat ulang tahun, Slamat ulang tahun, slamat ulang tahun agli... slamat ulang tahuuuuunn" yeeeee... selamat ulang tahun agliiii... (i guess this is adi's voice)
Ibu Tersayang : "Cieee... ulang tauun niyeee... berapo umur sekarang yuk ?!"
Agli : (sekuat tenaga mengeluarkan suara normal biar ngga ketahuan kalo nangis, dan gagal total) " 22 tahun bu.."
My Hero : "Waii.. lah berumur itu, semoga umurnyo berkah yo nak"
Ibu Tersayang : "Selamat ulang tahun dan semoga sukses dunia akhirat.. jangan bolong-bolong sholatnyo.."
Agli : "mokasih bu, pak.. Insyaallah sholat terus.."
Adi : (setengah berteriak) agli, cepet balik yo, beli baju lebaraaaaann !! hehehe..."
Akupun ngga bisa menahan tangis, selain bahagia tangis pagi itu membuatku kembali yakin kalo aku ngga pernah sendiri, mereka selalu ingat aku, sayang dan mendoakan agar aku kian menjadi manusia yang lebih baik :) Dan surprise dari mereka orang-orang terdekatku belum berakhir, nina one of my incredible best friend forever called and what a surprise; nina, ijong, nina's mom, dian and ai (nina's little sisters) also sing happy birthday for me :) . . . and my tears go down again :) Pagi itu aku semakin menyadari akan kado terindah dari Allah, aku dikelilingi orang-orang yang penuh kasih dan aku ngga akan pernah sendiri karena mereka selalu ada dan senantiasa mendoakanku, yaah.. kabar gembira lainnya, aku juga punya keluarga disini. I don't know how to say it : sisters, incredible best friend forever, nina-agy-ijong backpacker wannabe, or whatever it is,
YOU GUYS ARE SPECIAL FOR ME.
Well, well, well, bersyukur akan punya orang-orang seperti mereka dan sekarang saatnya we do something fun, something to cheer me up and i can't make it without them. Setelahnya tepat jam 9 aku, ijong dan nina beserta keluarganya meluncur ke pantai carocok painan pesisir selatan. What a coincidence, nina yang lagi dikunjungi keluarganya yang berarti kami (aku dan ijong maksudnya) harus dan wajib turut serta menemani mereka jalan-jalan. hahaha... and here we are !! at carocok beach !! really had a great time there, and for you please enjoy some photographs of us with hullahoop, banana boat and yeaa we're so happy !!!
WOOOW !! Hullahop in action !!
Thank You just for loving me :)
Let's take a look days before my birthday, dimalam ulang tahunku dan beberapa hari sebelumnya aku mengalami yaah i felt just like someone who live alone, no one care of me and nobody loves me. Perasaan aneh ini kian menjadi-jadi, aku kian menutup diri, lebih memilih menghabiskan waktu sendirian di kosan, nonton sampe mataku terasa perih. Something occured, i cried after watching Chuck season 3 episode 19 (again). That night I watched it for three times and everytime i watched it my tears go down.. Well sounds stupid may be, selain chuck episode 19 ini memang episode favoritku (scene yang selalu bikin aku nangis: ketika Shaw menembak ayah chuck. No need to explain but i just think i need to make it clear), saat itu aku ngerasa ngga butuh siapa-siapa karena aku yakin kalo aku sempat cerita ke mereka, bisa dipastikan mereka hanya akan menanggapi perasaanku ini sebagai suatu hal yang berlebihan. Tapi Setelahnya aku ngerasa lega, rasanya semua yang nyesek berkurang, aku pun sedikit jadi lebih tenang dan ternyata kali ini aku cuma butuh nangis. Sedikit rasa lega dan deep down inside i want to see my family, i want my mom and my dad hug me, i want a surprise simple gift from my two little brothers, just like years ago, they gave me coldplay first album (coz i lost mine). God.. I'm so grateful for having those people around me..
Paginya, aku bangun lebih awal dan i found so many unread massages in my cell phone and my facebook wall also full of birthday wishes :) Mereka mengirimkan ucapan selamat dan doa yang sukses bikin aku merasa haru, belum sempat ku balas satu-satu tiba-tiba My hero memanggil dan ringtone "Alert-alert !! your daddy is calling" terdengar dari handphoneku, dengan excited ku jawab panggilan itu:
Agli : "Hallo assalamualaikum bapak.."
My Hero : "Waalaikumsalah warrohmatullah.. (bapak, Ibu, Nday, adi nyanyi bareng) "Slamat ulang tahun, Slamat ulang tahun, slamat ulang tahun agli... slamat ulang tahuuuuunn" yeeeee... selamat ulang tahun agliiii... (i guess this is adi's voice)
Ibu Tersayang : "Cieee... ulang tauun niyeee... berapo umur sekarang yuk ?!"
Agli : (sekuat tenaga mengeluarkan suara normal biar ngga ketahuan kalo nangis, dan gagal total) " 22 tahun bu.."
My Hero : "Waii.. lah berumur itu, semoga umurnyo berkah yo nak"
Ibu Tersayang : "Selamat ulang tahun dan semoga sukses dunia akhirat.. jangan bolong-bolong sholatnyo.."
Agli : "mokasih bu, pak.. Insyaallah sholat terus.."
Adi : (setengah berteriak) agli, cepet balik yo, beli baju lebaraaaaann !! hehehe..."
Akupun ngga bisa menahan tangis, selain bahagia tangis pagi itu membuatku kembali yakin kalo aku ngga pernah sendiri, mereka selalu ingat aku, sayang dan mendoakan agar aku kian menjadi manusia yang lebih baik :) Dan surprise dari mereka orang-orang terdekatku belum berakhir, nina one of my incredible best friend forever called and what a surprise; nina, ijong, nina's mom, dian and ai (nina's little sisters) also sing happy birthday for me :) . . . and my tears go down again :) Pagi itu aku semakin menyadari akan kado terindah dari Allah, aku dikelilingi orang-orang yang penuh kasih dan aku ngga akan pernah sendiri karena mereka selalu ada dan senantiasa mendoakanku, yaah.. kabar gembira lainnya, aku juga punya keluarga disini. I don't know how to say it : sisters, incredible best friend forever, nina-agy-ijong backpacker wannabe, or whatever it is,
YOU GUYS ARE SPECIAL FOR ME.
Well, well, well, bersyukur akan punya orang-orang seperti mereka dan sekarang saatnya we do something fun, something to cheer me up and i can't make it without them. Setelahnya tepat jam 9 aku, ijong dan nina beserta keluarganya meluncur ke pantai carocok painan pesisir selatan. What a coincidence, nina yang lagi dikunjungi keluarganya yang berarti kami (aku dan ijong maksudnya) harus dan wajib turut serta menemani mereka jalan-jalan. hahaha... and here we are !! at carocok beach !! really had a great time there, and for you please enjoy some photographs of us with hullahoop, banana boat and yeaa we're so happy !!!
Agli-nina-Inong with the brand new Hullahop : )
Berpose dengan kain pantai : )
WOOOW !! Hullahop in action !!
Hiaaak !! main banana boat !! seruuu :D
Semakin menegangkaaan :D
Jembatan Akar : )
Untuk semua, aku cuma bisa bilang makasih dan I am totally have no idea how to thank you all for being there for me no matter what, There's no way i'm living without you, Cause we belong together now and forever united here somehow.. And yea, You got a piece of me, and honestly.. my life would suck without YOU.. 
Semakin menegangkaaan :D
Jembatan Akar : )
Thank You just for loving me :)
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martabak manis
Other Side of The World
Last two days i met my uncle on facebook. Let me tell you something about him first, he's my mom's little brother, a nice person and so generous, one thing that always remind me of him : his curl hair :D and i call him Mang Senan. As usual he asked my study, when will i graduate, and you know the answer's still the same "i'm on my way to make it and keep praying for me". That day he informed me something, something that i'll never know if he didn't tell me.
"Ag, ndak kontak cik Mala di Inggris dak ?!"
Woow !! I'm so excited he told me so. Then i searched my cik Mala's facebook account, and gotcha !! Nurmala Malongsari. I added her and also sent a message. First, eventhough we are aunt and niece, i doubt if she's still remember me or not. Because i just met her one time in Palembang at Cik Iim's wedding party. All because we grew up in different place, i'm in Bengkulu while she's kinda career women whom travel a lot and last time i heard she's in United Kingdom.
After waiting about 3 and half hours, finally she replied my message. I'm so glad that she's still remember me and also asked some questions about my study :D Yay !! We are officially connected via facebook :D (this is why i love facebook and kinda addicted). I do enjoy her 14 photo albums and her writing (and also make me jealous). i see how's her life in Newcastle United Kingdom: Cik Mala and her husband, Cik Mala and the snow, her garden in the back yard, her veggies and chicken, perfectly all of those pictures are awesome. I wish i could be there someday, feel the snow, summer, spring, autumn and socialize with british people with their lovely accent (which is i adore so much) :)
Cik Mala and her garden at the back yard
Cik Mala and My uncle at Venice the city of water
Well, may be some of you see this post as an exaggerating story. But for me it's so special, i found one of my family who live far far away from Indonesia. All i can say to her, never forget our hometown and we are barely waiting to see her again in Indonesia. Really miss her and so many questions i would like to ask.
p.s Cik Mala, masih inget pempek lenjer dak eh ?!... :D
"Ag, ndak kontak cik Mala di Inggris dak ?!"
After waiting about 3 and half hours, finally she replied my message. I'm so glad that she's still remember me and also asked some questions about my study :D Yay !! We are officially connected via facebook :D (this is why i love facebook and kinda addicted). I do enjoy her 14 photo albums and her writing (and also make me jealous). i see how's her life in Newcastle United Kingdom: Cik Mala and her husband, Cik Mala and the snow, her garden in the back yard, her veggies and chicken, perfectly all of those pictures are awesome. I wish i could be there someday, feel the snow, summer, spring, autumn and socialize with british people with their lovely accent (which is i adore so much) :)
Cik Mala and her garden at the back yard
Cik Mala and My uncle at Venice the city of water
p.s Cik Mala, masih inget pempek lenjer dak eh ?!... :D
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martabak manis
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