We were meant to be !!

This short writing is dedicated to kak Jeni :)

I know that i really had quality times with you, hanging together, laughing silly things and sometimes i wonder what was the thing that made me miss you so deeply. We've been together for 35 months and for all what i've done I never meant to hurt you or else, i am really sorry for the tone i used, words that i said that hurts you so bad. i don't want to lose you either. But may be i'm still less capable to show you what i feel.

Tears, anger and jealousy.. i've started to get used to it :) and now i know that nothing is impossible when it comes to love.Truly, I feel the best when I'm with you. oh ya i have something for you kak, please enjoy the photograph below. I draw it when i got stuck with my graduate-thesis, but later it cheers me up and yes !! we were meant to be ;)

cute, huh ?! :D

Hope you like that cute photograph :)
See you soon :)

Hello Again...

Almost a month i leave martabak manis, no writing and no story. Yes, there were so many ideas came up in my head from time to time but i never really got a chance to write it. Busy ?! uummm.. not really. Just disappear for a while :) Anywho, where ever you are, i bring you some stories that probably you would like to read :D

1. I just got back from my hometown Bengkulu. Celebrating Idul Fitri with my whole big family and my friends, you know it's kinda a long awaited reunion. So happy but time goes by so fast and here i am, back to my daily life as a last year student who should finish her graduate-thesis soon, very soon.

2. My weight !! gosh gosh !! just can't believe it rises 4 kilograms. aarrrgghhhh :(
gee.. a big fat tall beautiful gorgeous agy is back !! :D

3. And ya, bout my graduate-thesis.. haven't even started to re-write. Have to find an encouragement; anything, anyone, anywho, whatever. I need that as long as it encourages me so i can start to finish and free my soul from the bloody question "Kapan wisuda ?!"

4. For somebody out there, hope you are fine and always have the same feeling with me. Wish you were here with your very comforting smile just to say "have a great day agli.." every single morning when i wake up. I know, distance means nothing when someone means so much, but i just wanna be honest with my self that i miss him, i miss him to the bone.
Would love to meet up sometime in the near future..

And others ?! well yaa.. doing great with my incredible best girlfriends and other friends at campus. One thing for sure, i miss my two little brothers, my mom and my dad. Really miss to be around them. Oh yaa.. FYI "Sinusitis itu menyakitkaaan dan sangat tidak enak" so avoid ice, any kind of ice; ice cream, cold soft drink, waffle ice cream, ice cream sundae and any other float drinks. Special for me and all of you, start a healhty life !!
So, so so.. i guess that is all for now. Hope i can do more writing next time :)

Am i overreacting ?!

Having a long distance relationship ?!
It never crossed my mind not even in my wildest dream.
Well ya, the day that i agreed to have this kinda relationship i was thinking that this relationship won't last more than three months. But i was all wrong, it's 28 months already. Until now, I do believe this is the benefit of being an easy going person, yea i don't really need a person whom always be there for me, meaning that i can actually meet the person whom i have relationship with. No, i don't need that. I'd like to be alone, have my own time and keep trying to be an independent girl who is able to finish many stuffs by my self. Also positively i'll learn how the length of the distance teach me to more patient and faithful.

For 28 months i know pretty well how to deal with all jealousy, anger, missing, trust and to be trusted and also faithful. Sometime i can handle it well and sometime i failed, if i may say I've failed almost all the time :( .. It's more difficult since i realize i know i can do anything that i want without him knowing whatever i'm doing here. I'm tired to struggle on those problems. I'm sick of it. Then somehow it changed. I started seeing long distance relationship in a different way. Right now i need the real one, like, when i need someone to help me with school work, someone to give me a hand with all my graduate-thesis stuff, someone whom his face always smile for me just to cheer me up, he can't really be there to help me. We've done many things to make that distance seems nothing; chatting online, video conference, video call by cell phone, texting, talking on the phone, etc. But still, meeting him in person is something very special since i can't see him everyday.

I know i should not be that selfish by wanting him to be right here beside me. There are reasons why this is happening. Yaa i know, the only thing that i still believe; it surely will be better when something so far finally gets so close to me. When will it happen ?! it'll come exactly when i can pass through all those messy things. Just let the LDR drama started :)