Me on December

Hello :) First of all, happy new year !! and it's 2011, new year, new day, new hopes ,wish everything be better, more beautiful and the most important thing; keep living life to the fullest :)

Well, i'm not gonna talk about new year or anything related, instead i bring a story of me at the end of December 2010. December 22, well ya it's mother's day. i know it's late to write something bout it but you know my right hand just got better few days ago. What about it ?! my right hand ?! oh it's a long story and let me tell you this in another story. But anyway , about two weeks ago i had a very happy days, let's say "i was happy to the max !!". oh God i can't believe i finally did it. i passed my graduate-thesis examination on the mother's day and for that my sincere gratitude goes upon the most valuable persons in my life for their love and support. My parents and my only two little brothers; Ibu, Bapak, Nday and Adi. They are my only reason to keep trying and be a better person, also thank you so very much for giving me uncountable spirit, love and affection when I fell down. Special for the one whom i have the relationship with for the last 35 months, you are just that kind and for sure i'll name you in my acknowledgement :D

Speaking about mother's day and my parents especially my mom, i do admit that i'm still nothing, i haven't give anything in return for everything they gave to me. Are they proud of me ?! i am not really sure bout it, but one thing for sure they are my hero. My mom and my dad didn't come from a wealthy family but they both was so very lucky to had grandpa and grandma who concerned about education much. it's like they did everything they could to support their kids with good education no matter how hard the family financial situation was. Grown up in a family like this, Mom and Dad concern alot about me and my siblings' education. My Mom is the one who always accompany us when we do our homework and they like to send us to join any courses than to buy jewelries or decorate our house. They always put education on top priority in our little family and they put aside their own needs, i know for sure they do all of that simply because they love us that much. And me as the eldest children in my family should be a good daughter and a kind sister for my little brothers, and yeaaah i'm still on my way to be a good figure for them. Can i ?! But too bad, because recently I believe that they are upset bout my education where i didn't graduate strict to the time, i'm so sorry for that mistake.. But still i really hope this happy news could heal that feeling :) ( I got A mom, dad..). For all things they did and didn't do to me, i do love them so very much. i love you mom, i love you dad more than i ever showed you. I really hope i can make you proud of me in your life time, because i do proud to be your daughter.

Happy mother's day mom..
Selamat hari Ibu, Ibuku..

We were meant to be !!

This short writing is dedicated to kak Jeni :)

I know that i really had quality times with you, hanging together, laughing silly things and sometimes i wonder what was the thing that made me miss you so deeply. We've been together for 35 months and for all what i've done I never meant to hurt you or else, i am really sorry for the tone i used, words that i said that hurts you so bad. i don't want to lose you either. But may be i'm still less capable to show you what i feel.

Tears, anger and jealousy.. i've started to get used to it :) and now i know that nothing is impossible when it comes to love.Truly, I feel the best when I'm with you. oh ya i have something for you kak, please enjoy the photograph below. I draw it when i got stuck with my graduate-thesis, but later it cheers me up and yes !! we were meant to be ;)

cute, huh ?! :D

Hope you like that cute photograph :)
See you soon :)

Hello Again...

Almost a month i leave martabak manis, no writing and no story. Yes, there were so many ideas came up in my head from time to time but i never really got a chance to write it. Busy ?! uummm.. not really. Just disappear for a while :) Anywho, where ever you are, i bring you some stories that probably you would like to read :D

1. I just got back from my hometown Bengkulu. Celebrating Idul Fitri with my whole big family and my friends, you know it's kinda a long awaited reunion. So happy but time goes by so fast and here i am, back to my daily life as a last year student who should finish her graduate-thesis soon, very soon.

2. My weight !! gosh gosh !! just can't believe it rises 4 kilograms. aarrrgghhhh :(
gee.. a big fat tall beautiful gorgeous agy is back !! :D

3. And ya, bout my graduate-thesis.. haven't even started to re-write. Have to find an encouragement; anything, anyone, anywho, whatever. I need that as long as it encourages me so i can start to finish and free my soul from the bloody question "Kapan wisuda ?!"

4. For somebody out there, hope you are fine and always have the same feeling with me. Wish you were here with your very comforting smile just to say "have a great day agli.." every single morning when i wake up. I know, distance means nothing when someone means so much, but i just wanna be honest with my self that i miss him, i miss him to the bone.
Would love to meet up sometime in the near future..

And others ?! well yaa.. doing great with my incredible best girlfriends and other friends at campus. One thing for sure, i miss my two little brothers, my mom and my dad. Really miss to be around them. Oh yaa.. FYI "Sinusitis itu menyakitkaaan dan sangat tidak enak" so avoid ice, any kind of ice; ice cream, cold soft drink, waffle ice cream, ice cream sundae and any other float drinks. Special for me and all of you, start a healhty life !!
So, so so.. i guess that is all for now. Hope i can do more writing next time :)

Aku minta maaf...

Seharusnya aku semangat seperti mereka, seharusnya aku bisa mengendalikan diri untuk tetap konsentrasi nulis thesis, giat merevisi, semangat bimbingan, ngebaca ulang novel-ku, tapi faktanya aku kian ngga bersemangat untuk ngelakuin itu semua :( ... Aku lagi malas, malas banget. Semakin gagal melawan malas yang kian menjadi-jadi ini.
Jadi pesimis bisa wisuda Oktober nanti. Maaf Ibu, maaf bapak, maaf nday, maaf adi, agli sepertinya bakal mengecewakan kalian semua..

Nulis atau Nyusun

Kemaren nama pembimbing keluar, Alhamdulillah.. akhirnya dewa-dewi itu muncul juga, dengan demikian resmilah kami memasuki dunia yang namanya "BIMBINGAN" saellah.. gaya beneer :D. Lega, akhirnya berasa juga jadi mahasiswa yang lagi nulis skripsi, bukan nyusun skripsi ya, karena menurut aku nyusun ama nulis beda jauh maknanya; nulis bermakna positif, dalam artian kita nulis yaa.. beneran nulis ide kita sendiri disertai dengan data -data yang valid , tapi kalo nyusun maknanya rada negatif, yaah.. namanya juga nyusun, berarti bisa comot sana-sini trus disusun alias plagiarisme, yang jelas haroom banget didunia akademis :P.

Kapan selese yah.. aduuh, udah banyak yang nanyain nih. Jadi bingung mau jawab apa.. Boleh cerita fakta dong ya, gini.. di jurusan aku, Sastra Inggris Fak. Ilmu Budaya Universitas Andalas, ngga tau apa yang salah apa yang melenceng apa yang bikin susah, yang pasti satu angkatan 2006 belum ada yang wisuda dan ngga ada kandidat yang bakal wisuda periode Juni 2010 ini. Yap. wisuda tercepat setiap angkatan pasti setelah menempuh masa study 4 tahun. ngga ada cerita yang tamat 3 setengah tahun , menyedihkan. Bukan karena mahasiswanya ngga ada yang mampu, kita mampu kok !! (mereka yang ip-nya selalu 3,4 maksudnya :D hehe) yang bikin heran, mata kuliah Seminar ditawarkan di semester 8 (dijurusan lain mah semester 6 juga udah pada kuliah seminar :(( ..) daan di semester-semester sebelumnya banyak banget yang statusnya mata kuliah bersyarat. Harus lulus Phonology 1 baru bisa ambil Phonologi 2, harus lulus Morphology 1 baru bisa ambil Morphology 2, harus lulus Theory of Literature 1 baru bisa ambil matkul theory of Literature 2, harus lulus reading comprehension dulu, trus critical reading trus terakhir advance reading , harus dapet minimal C buat lulus matkul Literary Criticism 1 baru bisa ngambil Literary Criticism 2, tentunya semua matkul tersebut ada di semester yang beda-beda. Ditambah lagi kiblat sastra inggris yang dikenal dengan sistem sks murni. Gubraak !!! selamat. Itu artinya, bagi kami yang pengeen banget kuliahnya selese 4 tahun, jangan banyak matkul yang gagal deh, karena dengan otomatis akan ada semester 9 dan 10 ditambah lagi harus nebelin muka ketemu orang BAAK di rektorat buat bikin KTM baru. hiks.
Masalah gagal kan bervariasi : karena males, karena kesiangan sampe ngga kerasa udah absen 4 kali yang artinya see you next 2 semesters, dan yang bikin sakiiit banget subjektifitas sang dewa-dewi.. Iyalah.. mo gimana lagi, kita mah mahasiswa :D

Kok jadi berkeluh-kesah gini ya ?! back to the topic deh, dosen pembimbing aku. Well, My first Supervisor is a kind of busy person, heuheu.. that fact demands me to be more pro-active to find her, make an appoinment, never be late and do all my best in revising my thesis. Don't waste her time and mine. hmmh.. My second supervisor, geee... gaul, asik, jiwa muda dan okeh banget buat diajak konsul, in fashion. hoho.. Thanks God, it will be so much helpful for me, she treats me like a friend :))

oke temen-temen, selamat bimbingan..
ngga ada cerita pembimbingnya ngga asik ato apa, inget yah.. skripsi itu bukan ujian otak semata, melainkan ujian mental !! hoho :D